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Woot!

Okay.  My sucky Seb/Pie story's done. It's a letter, really.   Read and be gentle.  I can't take many "you suck" comments.  Hehe...^_^v..

Oh, and I give you permission to bash my head in for any errors.

You’re absolutely amazing.  You know that, don’t you?  Of course you do, everyone knows it.  Everyone knows it because you tell them.  You’re so fucking self absorbed in front of our friends and I hated it for the longest time.  I hated how you played our relationship down around everyone, but when we were alone you held me and told me you loved me.  Sure you started to talk about our relationship to a certain few but you’d never touch me in front of others.  I never understood why.  I’d try to take your hand and you’d pull away from me.  I was nothing but a friend to you when we were in public.  I could never figure out why.  Was it that you didn’t want anyone to know you’re gay?  Were you just ashamed to let anyone know it was me you were with?  It wasn’t any of this.  You loved someone else.  I wasn’t good enough for you.

            I saw the way you were with him.  Hell, I’ve caught you with him before.  I never said anything about it because I didn’t want to lose you.  That day’s been locked in my memory ever since.  I guess it wouldn’t have bothered me so much if there hadn’t been exchanged I love yous and if your body wasn’t pressed against his the way you always were with me.  That was the day I broke.  I wasn’t the same with you anymore and it was your fault.  You didn’t know I knew.  Eventually I lost you completely.  You shipped out like I was the Plague and Billy was the cure.  Well, fuck you.  I don’t need you.  At least that’s what I tried to convince myself of.  But I need you like I need oxygen, like I need love.  And not an ounce of you cares.  You tell me that this is all my fault because you weren’t ready to be loved.  How is it my fault when you were the one talking about getting married?  I can’t control who I love, Pierre.  Believe me, If I could it fucking wouldn’t be you.  I’d much rather love someone else then to sit here in the middle of all our photos together, crying.  Photos that you took.  Photos that no one ever saw.  The pictures are fading away now but the memories are not.  I miss you, Pierre.  I miss your arms around me, I miss your lips on mine.  The way you said “I love you, Sebastien” and the way we made love.  It wasn’t love to you.  I was just the one you “fucked.”

            I’m only going to pour my heart out this one time.  I know you’ll only laugh and tell everyone that I never mattered to you so you can get on with your life.  And don’t even think I’m blaming this on Billy…he didn’t know about us.  He does now.  That’s why Billy is the one sitting beside me, holding me, and understanding me.  Your trick backfired, Pie.  For once, I’m not the butt of the joke.

 

Thanks for nothing.

            Sebastien
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You shipped out like I was the Plague and Billy was the cure.
I love that line :)
This wasn't bad so I'm not about to tell you you suck, cause I'd be lying ;)
I liked it. I'm really appreciating how alot of writers are going with unconventional fics. Meaning, you decided to make the story a letter instead of a standard story. Props to you. I still dont see what nevousness you should have had when posting this.
Judging from the exposition you gave throughout the story, it gives just cause to seb being as emotional as he is. I really dont see a PMS/emo-ish character when reading this. I see a character that had thier heart stomped on and is getting paybacks. You did that very well. I like this story. You didnt cop out with some fluffy ending. You left it with a haunting and yet sadistically vengeful ending. Great job.
The voice of the story was great. You get the visual of seb choking back tears as he writes this. That was good. You manage to make the reader to empathize with Seb. Great job.
I've decided not to bash in your head, but to instead compliment you on your story. And mainly to say, I cant wait to read your next fic. Happy and Bitchy emotions and all.
Thanks for the CONSTRUCTIVE comments. I mean, most people just are like "that was good" or "that sucked" and leave no reason why. But thanks for the comments, they were really great and it's making me feel better about this letter to Pierre from Seb that I really thought was no good.
That was great. i was really looking forward to bashing someones skull in to. Darn.
"I saw the way you were with him. Hell, I’ve caught you with him before. I never said anything about it because I didn’t want to lose you. That day’s been locked in my memory ever since. I guess it wouldn’t have bothered me so much if there hadn’t been exchanged I love yous and if your body wasn’t pressed against his the way you always were with me."

damn you bouvier! *sigh* i love that. well not the whole pierre cheating on seb with billy thing, but the way you constructed your fic was amazing. putting it in letter format was a good idea too. most fics i read are all like "pierre cheats on seb and then they get back together cos seb's a pushover". i hate it when people write stuff like that. i mean just cos he's the youngest doesn't mean he's a pushover. little people rule! *jumps up and down waving flags*

i love your fics. keep the good work going my friend!
oh my GOD. it is so friggin cool. if it makes you happy, you dont suck. hah bet you never knew that! hah kidding, your story rules...